Twisted

TWISTED

I twist, I turn, all up-side-down
My face a constant  twisted frown
My stomach, bitterness and fear
The tears inside me ever near
Emotions streaming, pouring round
But inside I don’t make a sound

I sink, I swim, I feel so sick
Please let this torment end now quick
The pictures, memories and dreams
Like a waterfall it streams
Always, never-ending, tears me down
Like God’s thorn encrusted crown

How, dear God do I find peace?
I cannot rest, I cannot sleep
A million different ways I turn
Always trying hard to learn
I have the guide, I have the love
Why can I not just rise above?

I pray the answers come to me
Inside I know I have the key
Deep inside the freedom glows
The brightness of the light it shows
The soul of lightness needs setting free
I just need to let it be
But sadness now just holds me down
I cannot undo my twisted frown